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So yea...I'm in California for Christmas. It's...eh...I mean, I love spending time with my cousins. I missed my mom and brother, so it's great seeing them. I got to spend time with the friends that I wanted to spend time with, and tomorrow we're heading for Vegas. Despite all this, as I am sitting here, I could only think of one thing...I want to go home. For the first time since I've moved to Texas, I am truly feeling homesick for it.
Before, each time California was around the corner, I'd be so excited. I'd be off the wall and counting down the days, and I wouldn't be able to sleep the night before because I was so excited. This time, I did count down the days, but I was counting down the days to a vacation, to a break, not to California. I was excited, for a break from stress, not for California. I wasn't able to sleep the night before, not out of excitement, but out of anticipation of leaving my home.
The day I was leaving for California, I told My Dung that I didn't want to go, and I blamed her. I told her that I blame her because she's one of the people that I am really close to in Texas, and that ties me closer to Texas. When I found out that I was moving to Texas, I didn't want to go. 100% of me wanted to stay in California. When I got to Texas, I did my best to adjust, but I still missed California.Eventually, when the friends I had started to drift off down to just several close ones, adjusting to Texas became easier. Finally, when I broke up with my then boyfriend, I found Texas to be a very nice place to live. It was as if the last thing that was holding me back to California was finally gone, and I finally gave myself the chance to really be happy in a new place. True, my mom and brother are still over here, but my mom visits a lot, and ever since I moved, my brother and I have talked on the phone more. In a sense, we've gotten closer.
Now, instead of people holding me to California, I have created bonds with people that now hold me to Texas, and I think that's the reason why I get less and less excited to come back to California now. In all means, I still love going back to California. I mean...the food here is great! I just think that now...I am truly moving on with my life, and my life now is in really in Texas.
It's interesting...I just noticed that I tend to have posts like these each time I come back to California. I guess the old cliché holds true...you don't miss what you have until it's gone.
Quote of the post: "If Christmas isn't found in your heart, you won't find it under a tree." - Charlotte Carpenter
Song of the post:
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Merry Christmas, Darling - The Carpenters
Greeting cards have all been sent
The Christmas rush is through
But I still have one wish to make
A special one for you
Merry Christmas darling
We're apart that's true
But I can dream and in my dreams
I'm Christmas-ing with you
Holidays are joyful
There's always something new
But every day's a holiday
When I'm near to you
The lights on my tree
I wish you could see
I wish it every day
Logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and to say
That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year, too
I've just one wish
On this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you
Instrumental Interlude
Logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and to say
That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year, too
I've just one wish
On this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you
I wish I were with you
(Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas - Darling)
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